It’s been a while

It’s been a while since I have written and boy have I missed it!

I know I am not a great writer with interesting views and a huge vocabulary. I’m just a regular girl with thoughts and feelings.

Since I last posted ALOT has happened. Some good and some not so good.

My dad was diagnosed with glioblastoma in late November of last year. He is currently being treated at MD Anderson in Houston.

His symptoms came on seemingly quick. Although, now he can pinpoint some changes in his personality that started last summer. They traveled some of the east coast and spent a few days in Key West. He found it hard to get excited about things, he says.

He can run circles around any of us. He wakes up and goes to sleep with projects on his mind and lists written out. He retired from the U.S. Border Patrol when he was 49 years old! He hasn’t stopped one day. He is an avid motorcyclist, hunter, and tinkerer. He loves a challenge. In fact, he saved our house after Hurricane Isaac. Literally saved our house. He headed the project with his best friend and my brother.

At 66 years old nothing could stop him. NOTHING! Who knows how long he has had brain cancer. We will never know for sure. We do know that when the symptoms became too much for him to hide he had stage 4 brain cancer, glioblastoma.

He has been receiving radiation and chemotherapy for about a month with little or no side effects. He had gained some strength back. He had gain mobility in his left side. His speech had improved. The doctors warned of side effects in the beginning. I heard horror stories.

By the grace of God my dad has had an appetite and a good amount of energy. He hasn’t had the stereotypical side effects. When he heard the diagnosis his only response was “let’s kick its ass.” His fight has not wavered.

We have felt very blessed by this and I have questioned the ability for the radiation and chemo to be effective if he isn’t feeling anything. Well, all of that changed early Tuesday morning. My step-mom woke to him having seizures. They are staying at the hotel connected to MD Anderson and she called 911.

He was entubated after not responding to medication. He was sedated and has been in ICU since. He has lost mobility of his left hand and left leg. His brain is swollen.

I pray. What else can be done? I pray for so many things, mainly complete healing.

I regret. We aren’t supposed to regret things. That is not the way we are supposed to live. Well, I regret.

I stay busy. Handsome hubby and 4 kiddos keep me pretty busy but I have found another outlet too. I make diffuser necklaces to be used with or without essential oils and I enjoy my time making them. Even when there is chaos all around me I find making them peaceful, healing and right.

I pray a lot when making my necklaces.

So many people around me are effected by cancer. I decided to make a cancer ribbon. I give all of the profits to MD Anderson. Sure they are funded by a huge university. What can my minuscule amount of money do for them? I’m donating the money in my dads name. Knowing my dads name will be among donators names while he is going through the fight of his life means so much. Every dollar counts.

Trying to do something positive in such a difficult time is hard but necessary.

I hope to write again soon. I hope to have a more thought out post. I hope you continue to read. I pray for your health and happiness!

Until next time!

You can visit my ebay store if you would like to check out my necklaces!

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Writing Process

Every time and I do mean every single time I start to write I have a particular goal, idea or thought I would like to share that ends up evolving into something different along the way.

Today I want to write about how excited I am to see Handsome Hubby’s books as well as mine continue to sell. I know through the writing process my intention will evolve into something different. It always does. 

Often I feel I am being led by something stronger than the thoughts in my brain when I write, either for my blogs or in my writing in general. I’m curious? Does this happen to anyone else? Is this true to others writing process?

Handsome Hubby knows exactly what he will type when he sits to write. The words flow with ease and accuracy. For me, the process is like stumbling through deep, dark woods full of roots and plants. I stumble. I have to retrace steps. I cannot see the end until something grabs hold of my hands and takes over. Something envelops my thoughts and takes over. My creative juices flow.

There can be chaos all around or dead silence.Environment does not matter, What matters is my connection with who ever or what ever is guiding me. 

You see, I see orbs. I see 5 different ones as a matter of fact and know who most are. They guide me daily. But when I am writing I rarely see them, I feel something trigger a change in the direction my mind is thinking. I feel when I am on the right track, so to speak. Usually one word triggers that change and I go with it. Let the fingers type and honestly do not pay much attention as to what shows up on the screen or is being thought in my head.

Coo-coo?  Absolutely and it works for me! As I attempt to write my first fiction novel. I feel out of sorts. I am more of a self help kinda girl or TRUE STORY.  Fiction is hard and I am using it to challenge myself. When it is published and it will be, I pray that it speaks to many of you.

In the meantime, I ask that you read Handsome Hubby’s books

Prophecy of Honor

Jesus Held Me

or my books

My Metabolic Miracle

My Metabolic Miracle II- Tips and Recipes for Success

 

Thank you!

 

Please reply with your writing process. I truly am interested!

He said I wrote like a PRO!

Ahh…. summertime!

For us, summer translates to boat time.

I guess you could say we have two seasons here: boating and hunting.

We work as a family all week to take care of chores and maintenance around the camp so that when the weekend comes we can BOAT!

With 4 school age children at home we have daily chores, weekly chores and school work that must be completed.

Summer bridge work is very important to us here. Not the kids, the parents.

This summer it seems Handsome Hubby and I have some extra work too! Writing books! Meeting our own deadlines!

Handsome Hubby’s author page is linked here

His second book “Jesus Held Me” is a wonderful story of a terrible time in our lives.

“Prophecy of Honor”, his first book is close to becoming a “best seller” on Amazon.

He is rewriting it to add some character depth as I type this!

My second book

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will be released soon! Like real soon!

Look for the first, which I must say is not my best writing but is a story of triumph over struggles with weight. I consider it a “must read”. Don’t judge the second book based on the first.

When Handsome Hubby read the second he told me he thought a professional wrote it! His comment for the first was “get it published, it’s a great story”. Both compliments! I like being a PRO THO!

You can link to that here.

My third book will be fiction and I am scared to say the least! I may have to write under a pen name? We will see!

The placebo effect……

High quality essential oils are , to me, our God given medicine. Pure. Simple. Clean. Nourishing. Chemical free.

Quite a few years ago I began my journey of attempting to live cleaner. This task is both easily done and difficult all at once. Conflicting product information, conflicting views, as well as what our government allows in our food and products makes it difficult, to name as few things. Companies and individuals that share the “live clean” common interest make it easy to weed through the malarky.

The desire to live clean occurred by chance. A freak accident. I was Matron of Honor in one of my best friends wedding. We were making bags for
out of town guests to leave at their hotels. There were a lot, as the wedding was out of town. My hands full I walk into her house I did not greet her dog first as I always did. Merely leaning down to put the things on the floor I started to turn to greet the dog. As I turned he growled and lunged forward. His left fang grabbed my upper cheek and pulled down. 2 1/2 inches.

I honestly don’t remember how many stitches I had. I can barely remember the dogs name. There’s a way I remember names– going through every letter of the alphabet, sounding out almost every phonetic sound possible. Finally,,,,, MAVERICK came out of my mouth. That’s it. I’d known him since he was a puppy. Other than me not greeting him first and being at his level when I finally did we still don’t know why he bit me. A guard dog— pit bull and Dalmatian mix. I was lucky he let go. I was lucky he wasn’t an inch higher or my eye would have been part of the bite. Plain and simple,I was lucky.

My doctor said to keep it covered with sunscreen. Thick white coverage. I wanted the best. In my research I found there was not a “best”. Each has pros and cons.

At the same time another great friends sister was getting involved with a startup company out of Austin, NUTRITION FOR THE SKIN. Now know as Nuvante

This was my introduction to “clean” products. I got in at the ground level of the company as a forefather or something like that. I learned a lot about protecting your skin but soon realized there were many chemicals in these products. They helped people but I didn’t see a difference chemically between them and over the counter products and no one could explain it to me well enough.

A few years went by. My sons kindergarten teacher and I become best friends. She is part of a wonderful company, Arbonne

PURE. SAFE. BOTANICAL.
These are products that I understood and still do today.

But I wanted more. We did more. We eat our own meats such as venison and wild hog.

We have had free range chickens but need to replenish our stock We fish, crab, shrimp. We live off the land to avoid hormones and chemicals as much as possible. If I have to buy meat it upsets me.

I still needed more. I’ve used essential oils to make presents. Candles, pot pourri, bath scrubs and sachets, for example. For personal use, wipes and fabric softeners.

Never premium quality.

My youngest became ill this summer. For months he had a cold. Throwing up, hacking cough cold. 3 doctors and 15-17 medications later he was not well. Using Vicks only sparingly I changed tactics. I stopped all medicine and used Vicks solely. Within a few days he was well. Essential oils needed to be a bigger part of our lives. My research began. I compared 4 different companies and the different grade levels. Deciding Young Living was the best I ordered a small kit.

My son and daughter do not sleep well or fall asleep easily. One is 3 and the other 14. Stress Away, described in the catalog as relieves daily stress, encourages relaxation and reduces nervous tension, was in the kit. This would not be my first choice outbid all the oils to chose from to help with sleep but it is what I have…..My 14 year old had needed melatonin to sleep for a while. She ran out the night before last. I’ve always put my 3 year old to sleep until this week. Sunday night he ran around, wouldn’t stay in bed. I understood. Monday was easier but
more of the same. Tuesday I decided to use the oil on his feet and in our diffuser. He relaxed quicker as well as fell asleep faster. Last night the same. My husband told my daughter she didn’t need melatonin. It was in her head. We could give her a placebo and she would sleep fine. We put a few drops on her feet. She slept great.

My question is this…… Is there a placebo effect when you don’t know you are supposed to feel a certain way as in the case with my 3 year old?

I can’t wait to order more oils than the 5 I have. If you want any information I will help in any way I can.

Thanks for reading my long winded , round about post. For me it’s not a good story without a back story.

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I believe

“….being the most pure form of “you” that you can be. It is then that your natural talents will surface and shine. It is then that you will have the most fun of all! And it is then that you will allow everything in your world to prosper and blossom.”

Words I received from God this morning in an email as part of livealifeyoulove.com

Spiritual, I am.

I get these emails every so often. Sometimes from the future me, God and unseen friends ( angels). When I get an email it speaks to me. It might speak to you. It might speak to everyone on this earth.

Skeptics will say “You know, Cyndi, God didn’t actually write that to you?” They will say “How could your future self write you?”

I say ” Belief is a wise wager. Granted that faith cannot be proved, what harm will come to you if you gamble on its truth and it proves false? If you gain, you gain all; if you lose, you lose nothing. Wager, then, without hesitation, that He exists.”
Blaise Pascal

I’m an addict…..

Metabolism Miracle has helped our family tremendously. We now have a healthier lifestyle. Carbs react differently as they digest now (not nice). My brain, at times, CRAVES and even demands them! It’s an internal struggle that is never ending. Addictions are addictions and unfortunately a carb addiction, although it doesn’t seem as threatening as others, can be. Metabolic issues are caused by underlying issues, as well as cause such things as diabetes. The carb cravings are real. Just as an alcoholic craves alcohol. Lifelong effects of any addiction is dangerous. Looking back on my child hood on up I know my metabolic issues are certainly my fault. Taking responsibility for this gives me power to fix it. More importantly the need to teach my children what to do and not do is an extreme passion! The rules are simple. We don’t have to live carb free. We do need to:
1: Eat within 1 hour of waking
2. Eat at least every 5 hours
3. Drink at least 64 ounces of water a day
4. Eat more protein
5. Enjoy non starchy vegetables
6. Eat a snack before bed
7. Drink green tea
8. Exercise 30 minutes each day
Just to name a few.

Eating a honey bun washed down with a coke doesn’t really help you.

Waking up early to cook breakfast is worth it to help have a better chance of having a healthy metabolism. The hardest part in our home is getting one of my kids to eat breakfast, unless it’s a doughnut! We’ve found alternatives to this. Protein shakes are one. But as usual I get stray off…..

To be clear…..I am not making light of someone’s struggle with drugs and alcohol. My family had addictions of all kinds. These addictions affect and effect us all in different ways. Food addiction plagued a close relationship of mine for years until the person decided enough was enough. The wall between the couple caused by the food was much the same as that of an affair, alcohol or drugs. Except it seemed so simple. Why couldn’t the other just stop eating?!!
Up until one sentence ago I always felt blessed to not have an addiction. Ha! Duh? Yo-yo diets for years? Needing to lose 80 pounds??? Struggle with wanting to eat sweets daily? Addiction? I think so! A recovering addict to say the least.

Well they say in AA the first step is admitting you have a problem. I say that’s obviously not true. I mean I knew I needed to lose weight so I did it. Food addict? Never did I imagine.

So I’m here to say ” hi, my name is cyndi and I’m addicted to food”

Tell me your thoughts.