Try as I might I cannot be sad. You read correctly. I cannot be sad.
For years of my life I’ve been sad. Even when I have been happy, I’ve been sad. Some of us live happy with moments of sadness. I lived sad with moments of happiness.
I’ve sat here for the past week attempting to write. Four drafts await completion as I type this. They will not be completed.
I should have known what was going on when I decided to create a Happy page on Facebook. Me? HAPPY? Creating it as a “challenge” I told myself I was trying to grow, not be negative, bring positivity to my life. Little did I know, I already had!
Blogging is cheaper than therapy and cheaper than my degree in Psychology.
Writing this past year has helped me heal. I’m not a quitter but I think I’ll give up trying to be sad!